Death letter

I Uma Kodwa

I am writing this letter just to inform you that I will be gone forever from you and not because I am running away from you I am tired so many things have drained me emotionally , physically and I have had it I can’t take it anymore . I try to laugh and people always think I am happy but deep down I know I’m sad as fuck and alone in this so don’t ever think you did to much or to less for me this is not about you it’s all about me and my depressed life . I only laugh to comfort you so you know nothing wrong with me so you don’t start asking questions . I know I’m alone that pain stuck with me & I know that pain ain’t gonna leave , I’m way to young to be having a lot on my plate not even an adult can handle the problems I’m having . First it was losing my father that guy treated me like a princess like I was the only child were by I had a brother , He never ever for a second made us feel unloved . He loved me beyond anything . The day I got to know that he was no more I knew my life was over I don’t have a reason to live anymore not having a father is hard I bet you won’t know because you still have a father & a mother you have both parents . I don’t even see him in my dreams anymore not even by mistake he came to my dreams amd say ” yonke into izolunga mntanam ” .I miss you dad I miss you as years pass I miss you more and more every year , month , week , day , minute & second dad I want to see you again just allow me to come to you in heaven . I’m coming dad .